i must say these first weeks have been full of emotions, changes, highs & lows & adjustments... (knock on wood) i've escaped the morning sickness up to this point, haven't had much of an appetite, i could lay my head down mid-sentence at work and take a nap... but bedtime? nah--i'm WIDE AWAKE! ...and i'm finding it hard to get comfortable...
...now i know what you're thinking, if i'm having a hard time sleeping NOW, its going to get increasingly difficult in the NEAR future! in my own defense, i'm a life-long stomach sleeper... and even a week ago, when i'd lay on my stomach for just a minute, i'd feel soooo full (even if i decided it was psychological that it wasn't comfortable to me to "squish" my baby)... so for now at least, i'm contributing my sleep deprivation to an ADJUSTMENT of sleeping on my left side...
even though its super early, lee and i have already decided on names... we're done with the boy name (first & middle)... and he and i both have our favorite girl name (individually--we both like the other's but have our favorite)... but i'm pushing for my fave girl name since he picked the boy name... (even though he suggested the name that's ended up being my favorite girl name) ... wow, that's hard to explain without spilling the beans on the names we've picked yet...whew!
lee's been busy at work--we recently had our tax-free weekend here & they always have a big sale where he works in addition to the tax savings... he and his dad have been camping, and are going again this weekend (they include holiday inn accomodations camping, simply because they're in the mountains)... i've been told they're actually staying in a tent this time... i'll give you an update later :)
i recently got back from LAS VEGAS! went with my fantastic mother-in-law & my grandma... it wasn't quite the "go go go" trip that we normally have--visiting all the hotels, spending all day at the jewelry show, staying out late gambling & eating lots of good meals... THIS trip mostly consisted of good meals, a few hours here and there at the jewelry show & lots of NAPS! lol... thanks to preggers... :) which worked out perfectly--everyone had been looking forward to vegas, but we'd all been so busy at home it was nice just to get away! and i didn't have to worry about "hiding my secret" (well, it was a secret at the time)
as soon as i got back from vegas, i had what i THOUGHT was my first OB appt... so lee took off work thinking we'd get a little picture of our baby "blob" and he'd have something to cling to since the whole situation wasn't tangible for him yet (can't feel baby move, see/hear heartbeat, etc...)--i thought it'd be fun for him to go and get some baby proof! ...we were in for a wide awakening... they didn't even give me a pregnancy test! after they weighed me, drew blood & i gave them another "sample" for baseline measurements, we met with an OB coordinator in a CONFERENCE room who let us know when we have certain appts. and what they do... she let us know of the risks involved, the money required, what insurance doesn't pay for if we'd like done, etc... in a nutshell--all the bad news. we left the doctor's office sooo disappointed... so after some "family advice" we decided to start telling because even though it was early, we trusted that every person we told NOW, could ALREADY be praying for us & our baby. so that alone seemed to brighten the gloomy appointment we'd had...
i must confess, i've even had my doubts about being pregnant (with the exception of my "missed monthly visitor")--i took another test about a week ago (yea, it said pregnant) ...but its hard to put into words the way i've felt--the whole feeling to begin with has been so surreal, but then on top of that to not get any "confirmation" or "proof" from the doctor, i guess its easy to slip into negative thoughts... but i've been trying REALLY hard not to think negatively--because that can't possibly be good for the baby... but how could you blame me? no morning sickness and not really any "food aversions"... i mean, i've got my own set of pregnancy symptoms, but they don't seem to be the normal ones... some of my clothes are a little snug (baby bloat?), no appetite, sleepy, minor back pain, major boob pain (wow!!), consistently thirsty (resulting in more frequent potty trips), just an overall "blah" feeling...
...let's just say i have high hopes for my next appointment... sept. 1st... we're on schedule for an ultrasound... and i'm constantly reminding myself that not all appts. are like that, they just get the bad one out of the way first! :)
lee's cousin, anna, is also having a baby... and we are due on the EXACT. SAME. DAY.... well planned at least--the good Lord knows when these babies are comin' anyway! but what a blessing it is to have someone who's going through the exact same thing at the exact same time! :)
now, just a heads up for any future posts... these are designed for my documentation, and not necessarily for your enjoyment--although its information i don't mind sharing with you, and i have enjoyed learning from those of you who've shared your preggers experiences, i hope to help others somehow or just be able to help myself & look back on what i've documented... make sense?
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ah yes, the baby bloating. that was my least favorite symptom of early pregnancy. until the heartburn hit. the frequent peeing is a tell-tale sign (your uterus is starting to grow and add pressure to your bladder- get used to this one). the fatigue? oh yes- the most draining of them all.
it's hard to always be excited when you haven't heard a heartbeat or seen the baby yet or felt it. until i felt kicks, i counted down the seconds until the appts where i could hear the heartbeat. you're completely normal, and we are praying for you. it's hard work on the body, mind and emotions to grow a baby. you're off to a good start!
oh and that um... "other specimen/sample"-- get used to that too, you'll literally do it every time you go. cheers :)
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